Can't You Feel My Heartbeat Slow, I Can't Let You Go

Why is it that there are so many options available to me, and the only one I want is unattainable?

I want what I want, but I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings along the way.  

I don't like getting caught up, and somehow that always seems to happen to me.

I like someone, but I feel like things are progressing way too fast. 

I can't help but feel that my actions have only encouraged that, and I'm not sure what it is exactly that I should do at this point.

I want a boyfriend, but I want to be single. 

I want someone to cuddle with, but I want my space, my freedom. 

I am fully aware that I can't have my cake and eat it too, but I honestly don't know what I want right now.

I thought I did, but things are so confusing.

I'm just as bad as The Boy, it seems.

I suppose you could say I want closeness and intimacy, but at the same time I feel like familiarity can only come after a certain point. 

I can already tell that I feel like I need to push away, and I don't understand why I feel this urge so strongly if I actually like this person.

I'm going to a late lunch with The Boy and his daughter, and my own will come along as well. After everything that has happened between us, I'm surprised that we are talking when I was under the impression that we weren't. It's for the best that we probably only meet to let the girls play.  

I wonder if I will always remain this way.